Infant Loss & Grieving

Monthly Archives : September 14, 2015

My New Life

GrievingInfant Loss / September 14, 2015

How do you begin your new life when you have to leave your baby behind? As all the websites I subscribed to send me congratulatory emails about my new life- I stare at them in disbelief. Where is my baby? Why does my heart feel so empty? Who am I? I don’t recognize myself anymore. I find joy in very little. I struggle with the cruel reality that after 9 long months of growing, now I am forced to live in this empty body; a body without it’s baby held tightly in it’s arms. A baby to take away the fact that this body hurts. Recovering from my delivery physically …..

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Labor and Delivery Story

GrievingInfant Loss / September 13, 2015

I went to my doctor’s appointment on August 24, 2015 for my weekly prenatal check-up. I was 38w2d along in my pregnancy and the hot August heat was really starting to get to me. As I sat waiting on the table I was proud of myself because I had remained pretty consistent with my weight gain, but I had a twinge of wonder as my blood pressure reading was a “little high”- I couldn’t remember the exact number the nurse gave me. The doctor came in, I had never met this doctor before but since I was seeing them every week I wasn’t as worried about getting in with my …..

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My Story

Infant Loss / September 10, 2015

Hello-  My name is Kalyn and for some crazy reason I decided to start a blog to tell my story.  Two weeks ago, my baby boy passed away- he had a congenital heart condition referred to as Shone’s Syndrome.  Most people have never heard of this because it is a rare condition that occurs in less than 1% of all congenital heart anomalies (  LESS THAN 1%!! Here is my story: Nine months ago I got the best news of my life: My husband and I were expected our first baby!  We couldn’t have been more excited and happy… and scared!  A BABY! I had always wanted to be a mother …..

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